2 posts tagged “encouraging wife”

It's not easy to do when you have so much fear of the unknown going on around you.
 
My wife & I have been praying every day since this event (a good discipline that we'd like to continue infinitely).  Yesterday, a Christian-friend of my wife took us out to lunch.  Afterwards, they did some window-shopping as I ran some errands (the Lord's blessed us with some financial help) and got a haircut.  Then in the evening, we worked out at the gym.

  I haven't forgotten anything that happened.  It may sound as if we're just trying to become busy, but in fact, we're both deeply mourning those whom were left behind, as well as the injustice committed.  My wife and I have just given up everything going on here to the Lord.  It's tough though...REALLY tough, especially since I'm not receiving any phone calls or emails from any of our friends from among the place of this terrible event...makes me wonder what lies are being told in order to keep them from wanting to, which burns from within even more because I want to say something.  But my wife continues to remind me that Jesus is working on this, and I just need to stay out of His way.  Plus, taking things into my own hands would only make things bad.

  I'm currently in a situation where I'm crying out to God for justice.  I've been wronged big time, and due to a threat, am not able to defend myself.  I so badly want to fight back that it burns up from within me.  I want to tear my clothes in anguish, pour ashes over my head, and punch the ground that has cursed me.  I want to take a stance against these people and say, "NO! You're not going to spread your lies about me!  You're not going to mislead others in order to save your own face!"  I want to pray for God to strike them down, demolish their evil deeds, and cause everyone to see that it is in fact the enemy, Satan himself, who is behind their behavior.

  But no matter how difficult it is, I must refrain from doing so.  No matter how badly my heart is ripped apart when people text or call me to learn of what's happened, because they trust me and know that I will straighten out all the rumors going on around about me, the threat from a certain couple of people prevent me from doing so.
 
  "Why, oh Lord!? Why have you put these people into power?  And why have you allowed them to trample and stomp over me, your servant?"  I cry to Him for justice, and I want it NOW.

  But my wife reminded me of what Joseph said to his brothers..."What you meant for evil against me, God meant for good."  She also encouraged, "Let them sin against God, not you.  The Lord will have vengeance, but in the Lord's timing, not ours."

  I think that what stops me from doing what my emotions are telling me is when she said, "Let THEM sin against God, not you."  I must remember that the Lord brought us here according to HIS Will, and He knew that this would happen.

  I'm not trying to preach to you about trusting in God.  I just want to share my struggles with you so that you might be encouraged, for it's one thing for a Christian to tell another to trust in God, it's another thing for a Christian to take his own advice when Satan attacks him head on, and it's still yet another thing for me, a Christian, to share with you my journey as I struggle with stepping to the side and allowing the Lord to do His Will...in God's timing.